closure

2002 a very memorable year for me… when least expected love did come my way. I was a roving teller then… have seen a lot of different kinds of people… but who would have thought that something close to being called love at first sight would transpire.

It was one sunny day when I get to have my first trip to the Annapolis branch... as always everyone stared on us all when we arrived at the branch… who would not have a stare especially with my good looks… Nah I was just kidding… I was with the tallest crew of security guards then… I kindda got used to it though everytime we enter any premises all eyes were on us… a 20 year old guy on his polo barong accompanied by two armed men, who wouldn’t stare? Nothing special happen then… I was doing my thing… picking up some cash… then when I got the MCI receipt from this beautiful teller nothing special happened… no sparks, I’m just being good old me… snob.

After a few days I had a talk with Rey, the roving teller assigned within the vicinity of Annapolis… I dunno how it got out of me but I just find myself telling him, “may magandang teller pala sa Annapolis ha, I was there the other day.” (Of course the latter part wasn’t said in that manner…) and to my surprise… he told they had the same conversation as well… don’t have to brag all the details… but there’s an initial attraction between us I suppose.

The next time Rey arrived at the head office… he gave me a note… someone named Lorna… saying hi, I know I did reply to that note… and the second time I received a note she gave me her cell number… so we become instant textmates… then I asked her landline number so we could talk some more… and become phone pals after that. It was shameful that all the while I thought I was talking to a girl named Lorna… I mistaken her name for Lorna… but it was Irma… she admits she sometimes have poor handwriting… so Lorna now was Irma.

One Friday night I asked her out… the meeting was a bit unforgettable… when I was a few meters away from where we would meet I had an important phone call… Des, my friend was enrolling me to Fitness First so she had to ask me few details which took a while. After that I am not certain of how Irma looks like… and she does too… so like those chatters whom I have an eyeball with before I asked what was she wearing… and for the first time we met eye to eye… she has that sparkling eyes that I cant forget… we were uneasy for a moment but the first date was okay. The second time we met was when she introduced me to her sisters at the hospital… her elder sister, Jr, was confined there… everyone gave me a warm welcome… they were all nice.

Days passed by... and I was totally falling for her... and she was too... i just know.

It was her lolo's bday, they had a gathering at antipolo... at the bus she's a bit acting weird... its like she wanted to say something... but she's holding back. I didn't bother asking, cuz i know she'd tell me whatever it is on her mind. and so i met the rest of her relatives... they were all nice... and that day we watched "a walk to remember"... just reminiscing... he he he... and so we planned to hear mass at the Antipolo Church.... at the middle of the mass she told me something, a revelation that somehow made me tounge-tied... a secret that i wasnt expecting at all... but its no biggie... i already have known some of her past relationship with a MAGIC... and still i accepted her... i was speechless for a while... it made her cry... i was caught up with the moment and my initial reaction was to make her stop crying before her sisters and cousins would notice. i asked her why was she crying... she told me she's afraid that she might lose me after what she have told me... and i replied i am sorry if i made you feel like that way... i just dont know what to say, but dont worry nothing has changed... and so as the mass continued we had our first holding hands... and instead of giving a peace sign she gave me a kiss... and so then we became a couple. her sisters and cousins were happy when they saw us holding hands. they already knew... and she told me that earlier at the bus she already wanted to tell me about this already but she waited for the perfect moment... and it was indeed perfect. that was August 18, 2002.

we were so in love, though we dont see each other much often we still have long talks every night... one time she asked me to accompany her with her friends to an overnight swimming... i was a bit hesitant to come along but i did come... for some reasons none of her friends appeared... and i dont know what got into me that i had invited my brother and his girlfriend to come with us. and so we continued with the night swimming at Antipolo... it was a cold night then... but embracing her all night long pacified it all. we went home happy... i didnt know that would be the last time we will see each other...

one day when she asked me to go out with her to libis to meet up with her friends... some unfortunate events have happened that day, i was too stressed out so i declined... she didnt understand my situation so she hated me. for two days she didnt call or replied to my text messages... and so i decided to tell her that if you want it this way and so be it... we broke up... after few days i received a message from her... she already changed her number... and i was suprised that she did find a number with 18 on the last digit... she was telling me before that she was looking for a sim number with 18 on the last digit... i wanted to get back to her but somethings holding me back now... and it was PRIDE. yes, pride! i never reconciled with any of my past.

after a while, an event made us have a good talk about the past... i am still inlove with her... and i know she does too... it was when she looked at my cellphone the mood changed... we were so sweet when we came, others thought we were back together... but after she saw the number displayed at my cell she stopped talking... and i know she was hurt to know that i already found someone new.

and so we send messaged every now and then.... and i constantly check on her thru calls or thru friendster... at first i saw her newly uploaded pic with another guy... and i thought she already have moved on... but it hurts me when i saw she's already married... but still i was hoping she just changed her status, everyone can... but right after i saw the picture of their baby today.... i said it really is goodbye...

i have learned my lesson... never put pride first, it would get you nowhere.

i am happy for her... and with her husband and her baby. and now i am ready to open my heart again...